Dark-Rain-Girl

Very tired lately.
A lot has happened and quite a bit has not changed.
The immaturity i see in myself, has viciously surfaced.
So I am regretting a lot of things i have said or done to people or let people get away with.
I have pictures to upload, but I'm hesitant to do so on some of them.
Just for the pure personal nature they have for me, not that it will offend.

Yet I think it's time to show them. Time to make use of my life.
more later for now, Good day
and I say good day again
-DRG
~lily

You'd think I learn by now, that my life isn't normal. But I get lazzy get used to it and then get smacked in the face when confronted something that is normal and my eyes pop out. For instance. Went over to my friends house and it was the calmest thing i ever walked into seen or heard in the longest time.

My verdict?

I love my crazy life... to an extent. and I love how insane it is sometimes, at least compared to normal people. I realized though i travel far too much, and though i only get to see the people i love far too few. At least i get to see them.

So with what little time i have left to scrounge of the net before i take off. See you guys and have fun.
But not too much where i have to kick your butts. XP

DRG
~lily

So it's been more than a month since I have updated. Any of you notice the trend? That's right I moved yet again, But this time before drama could happen. Unfortunately my latest move has once again put me in the no internet zone. You people, my friends and watchers, should be familiar with that,And I should be familiar with what my life has become: A big walking disaster.

Let me explain
Since here is the only place i vent
Strange isn't it?
Either way:

Another funeral has come and gone
Another person is out of my life forever
And I can never talk to them again in this life.
I miss my family that has died, but that comes and goes like everything

My fiance, Well he has to take off often, I can't go with him because third world countries that are in civil unrest Are apparently to dangerous for me. I don't need to be a liability for him or the company so I'm stuck waiting and worrying.
I miss him so much
I don't get to see him often, but I treasure each moment we do get to spend together.

Yet still I'm worried. He says I shouldn't be but I am. Getting shot at even though you have a bullet proof vest does not ease my mind. We didn't even get to spend V-day together, And I don't resent that. I just wish his work wouldn't take him away so often, But it's what he does and I won't interfere.

On another note:
I have no job even though I've been looking. I've had to move in with my mother, An idea high highly distaste. I love her, but I have family issues that span a long time. All in the name of, you know the preventing drama thing? Well that took me out of the picture of a nice place, and a friend. But it had to be done before something good turned into a nightmare.

My friends Parental units have started to hate me and I understand why.From the outside It looks like I'm a lazy bum with no motivation. Little do they know how much i actually do help out. I may not have monetary assets, Yet I do my best for my friends: I give them advice when they ask, I listen to their problems, I help clean, I am grateful to them and use what i can to help them out. I help keep some of them keep on track and it goes both ways.  We both remind each other of things.

It's a good situation, a good system, one my friends and i have worked out through our troubles. But I think because people don't understand it or see what we do, They think i just manipulate the others. I can see how they think that. I don't blame them. It just hurts a little more each time someone says I'm no good to be around. I didn't do anything to anyone or cause harm to anyone.

I didn't needlessly hate, cause injury, or illicit bad actions. But no one cares. I'm just a scapegoat. I understand why it happened, and currently I'll just have to deal. So in the mean time. I'm just going to coast through my life. Through my hardships. Through the needless hate. I'll take the burden no one wants or cares for. it's just something allotted to me.

I'll work on art when I can. I know I owe a lot but right now I just don't have the time currently. I know I complained a lot with out too much detail. But there's more on my plate than I can handle. and this rant is now paragraphs long instead of my usual "verses".

Love you guys.
Keep making Art.
Whatever you're medium.

D.R.G.
~Lily

I'm just going to copy and paste what I said before.
Feel free to disagree with me.

Meh the purported "new" astrological signs that showed up recently really aren't something to gawk over.

1. They don't apply to anyone born before 2009

2. The "New" signs are based on the constellations of stars not the planets in our system. Silly misconception is that astrology doesn't focus where stars are, but more of "Zones".Unfortunately those zones were named at the time when the constellations actually did match up thus each one was given a name like Aries, Scorpio, or Cancer (in No particular order or preference)

3. The "New" signs were developed by an astronomer not an astrologer. Two completely different professions though they do have similarities. One is based in facts and proof the other is based on mathematics and human behavior.

But I will state it is a fun concept I'm usually fond of things uprooting everything we come to know and like. Sadly this one just doesn't quite makes it. Close but no dice.
Though this may come and bite me back in the butt I still stand by ...my "Meh." statement.


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So yeah that and I accepted a 100 theme challenge X.X
Kill me now this is a giant undertaking so fun i couldn't resist
What have i got myself into ?
So look for stuff of that coming later this weekend
I've been working on a few
So they'll be up in a bit

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Lastly I'm so excited.
I get to see my fiance today after a whole month of us being apart.
~squee

That is all you may resume your daily lives
D.R.G.
~Lily~

First off I just want to say:


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Thanks to everyone of you
Those who Watch, Favorite, comment
Those who I watch, Favorite, and comment
Those who know me Personally,
Those who Don't.
Thank you everyone.
With out you my year wouldn't be filled with smiles, tears, Heart aches and head aches, sadness love joy and happiness rolled into one.
So thank you everyone
You made 2010 awesome.

~Random Comment Time~:
(reading this part is not necessary)

This last year has been interesting
More active and odd with a combination of lazy i never thought achievable
But I suppose new experiences are good.
I grew up a lot.
Both artistically and mentally.

This coming Year I actually look forward to.
I have a few resolutions I'm pondering committing too.
And I actually have a busy year ahead of me.
I have weddings to plan, functions to attend.
And I'm thinking of getting my self into school.
(again hopefully i have better luck this time around)
I wanna be a masseuse.
>.>
But I want to take some art classes too,
For fun.

I Still have commission and a couple things to do,
But I'll put up a nice sign this New years.
_currently working on the finishing touches_
It'll have a sneak peek of a few things I personally want to work on.

I also, pending how things go,
Want to get involved in DA quite a bit more.
So you'll see me comment favorite and so on a lot more.

My goal this year is to post one pic a week.
or an equivalent of a years worth.
we shall see if I meet it.
or if it's a bunch of hot air talking.

Peace y'all
D.R.G.